Miss them a lot

I hated every minute being thousand miles away from family , but I said, "Be strong. Suffer now and live the rest of life as a champion."

pssst: insyaallah, will come back to Malaysia in this coming soon of August

Badri, thank you

Hi guys, could you see the header of my blog above? Comely right? Thats the outcome from creative thinking of my friend. He created five different style of header for my blog but I only upload only three of them. How can I ever express my thanks to you for all you've done? Badri Shaharudin thank a lot. This what I only can say and do for your kindness. By the way, I will buy something to you from Egypt, even this also can't repay your good deed to me, at least it show my appreciation toward you.

Badri Shaharudin I think I owe you thank you

pssst: syazana shared a story about 'thank you' yesterday

I do have bravery for cupping

Today, I gain new experience and succeed to overcome fear factor in myself which are pain and blood. I never think about to do cupping, but last night, when I was walking home from the masjid nearby my house, I met Ustaz Ja. I realized that he got two big red spots in his face, I asked him, 'what happen to your face?', then he told me he did cupping. Whoaa cupping? Thats sound interesting, I said to him I wanna do cupping too tomorrow, I mean today, and he organized me to do cupping. Yes, its slightly pain, but no pain, no gain. Wanna see some pictures? Of course you do, so just scroll down to see the pictures.

Its really hurt at the beginning then get used to.

After few minutes, cup is open and then nick applied to the skin

see that blood?

Hee, nasty blood

Tripple responses: Red line, spreading flare and local oadema

pssst: I will do it again next month

Accident meet us accidentally

I assumed that this post will provoke controversy and of course Syazana will be miserable about this post, and I expect nothing from her, I mean the one I'll talk about later on. Let this explain the untold truth stories. Yes, accident meet us accidentally. As I remember it was on April 2009 when I went to your school also at which my father teaching too, but I don't know exactly when it was, the date, the day. My father said that your class was the superior class in his school, so I went into your class, errrr 5 Sains, is it true?

My first day in your class quite fine, all of your classmate were very friendly, especially Jen, Ayu, Mashitah and few others and they spoke and befriend with me. I'm not sure whether you speak to me or not during the first day. Of course I do have no confident to talk with you cause I realized that you the gorgeous one in your class, I assumed that you had been owned. I thought we never ever befriend. Surprisingly day by day, we became close to each other and finally befriend.

Yet, I making huge mistake by closing to someone who was not been your friend and perhaps I did that to make you envious, and by this time, I even don't remember what her name. Okay we skip that part cause I know you still remember what happen to us after that. Until last few days I was in you school, you helped me to buy foods, drinks too and kindly brought them to my father's room cause I'm unable to do that due to my broken hand and on that time I do admire you, secretly admire you, am I telling you about this on that time, hee? Somehow I managed to have your phone number and I knew that time you will be mine. Don't take it too serious, it's just thoughtless joke.

But then, that assumption seem difficult to be true, cause on that time I knew that you admired someone but till now I even don't know his name. Time goes by and my broken hand get better and its time to say bye bye to you. We lost contact for several months and scarcely a month before our spm examination, we contact each other again. That time I told you about my feeling and I still remember you said to me, 'can I give the answer after spm?', then we lost contact once again. I tried to call and text you but no single reply from you, you kept silent. How could you do this to me? You really made me felt so down on that time.

Afterward spm I get known to someone so called Syazana. Yes, the one who fully owned my heart up until now, but we still get contact to each other but rarely. I guess you already know that by thats time about my relationship with her. You said you wanna wait for me but I don't think that you really meant about it. Before I went to Egypt to further my study, I went to your house and you served me choc cake and mee, I do admitted you cooked very well. Then, we (your younger brother and friends) went to the beach on that evening together to make you feel relieve due to loss of your father, which also friend to my parents, I'm very sorry for mentioning about this.

Now, whatever it takes, she, Syazana will be my only soul, she have been so kindhearted toward me and patiently adapt with my behavior during all the past days we have been got through together. She suffer so much cause of my bad manner towards her, I'm really sorry about that dear. Never blamed on me on whatever happen and always tried her best to satisfied my heart even her heart broken so badly. I must be the most lucky man on earth to have her and she also the one who always guiding me in this life - much more matured in action rather than me. Nashuha Ruslan, I do like you as friend but I do love her, Syazana Jasman as my soul mate for my entire life. But still I'm grateful as the person once who I love, loved me back :)

Rest in peace

Our last raya together - 2011

pssst: when it comes to make decision, i'm always made bad one, but this time its the best for me

Trip to Alexandaria

Seem this would be my first travelogue. For this time I wanna share about my trip to Alexandria. Thats was my first trip after I went back to Malaysia during the demonstration in Egypt. I thought the will be some-kind improvement in Alexandria, but it's still the old Alexandria and slightly made me frustrated but honestly Alexandria still much more better than Tanta. I went there by train with my Siamese friend, Madah. The only thing that i can like about the Egypt was it's train, its nearly on time. The rest in Egypt were screwed up but still can be tolerated. There two options of transportation to Alexandaria, the first one by train, and the second one by tremco but its slightly uncomfortable. Tremco actually is a van and here in Egypt it so called tremco. Whoaa there lots of stories to share and I have little time to spend on blogging, the exam coming too soon, why not, you guys just see the pictures. My addmath teacher once said that one picture can tell thousand words. Alexandaria here we go

waiting for the train

big big boy in Alexandaria

during dawn around 7 p.m

yes, nice beach huh ?

there still demonstration every Friday

all of us: Fazrul, Taqim, Madah, Mat J

pssst: i wish someday i'll come again here but this time with syazana

You not invited lol !

Perhaps this as the repayment for my fault due nonsense demands on her last night. We ended the chat with some arguments, i guess that make both of us sad and annoying. It's awful right? Yes, i do always know, you have tried to do the best for me, but the stupidity of me still don't know to appreciate the good deed you done for me so far. You pretending like you big big girl and not hurt when i say dreadful words to you, but deep inside you i know its broken to pieces. I'm sorry dear, it's my bad. I've failed to make you happy. I made you hurt more rather than making you happy lately, how terrible am i. How could i treat someone i loved the most so badly, dammit, regret about it. Dear, i tried and will try to do the best of me after this, make you smile again. Wish me luck dear !

damm it's private now

you look gorgeous dear

pssst: i was thrilled to be reinvited again.haha !

It's how our story began

It seem we have been one and half year together, experiences we get through together make the bond between us much more stronger than before. I'm truly don't expect to have your love, your soul cause i'm not the amazed one to have them, yet till now i still wondering what make you falling with me. Yes, i do grateful to be yours. Whether you realize or not, you some kind differ now, you much more genius, lovely, patient and of course more matured than before. You grew up just like the princess what i dream for in my fairy tale. Just wanna you know that how much important you to me and i do wanna say that thanks for being my all till now: my friend, my love, my enemy. Haha. Talks no more, let these pictures refresh all the precious memories we have been together.

the first time we eat together as family

it was during my birthday

we went to pcb before i fly to egypt

this the last time we eat together, right?

during our trip to Penang

pssst: imy & ilymnm syazana!

Bismillahhirahmanirrahim

'thousand miles start with a single step', so lets this be the first step of adventurous journey of my life. Great adventurer need enough rest before his journey, see you tomorrow guys.